Chapter 139
1019words
"A date? You're asking me on a date?" Evers and I stand in front of his locker as I put my foot in my mouth
"Yes" I smile trying to not freak out
"Jonah, you came out yesterday, is this because I'm the only gay person you know?" "No, I-"
"Come on dude practice is starting LET'S GO!" I'm yanked away by my teammate.
What the hell was I thinking?! I knew I shouldn't have asked Evers out, but I figured I could add rejection to the top of my screwing shit up list since that's all I've been capable of lately.
I came out yesterday and being a textbook definition of a jock I didn't actually think it all through, not that I care what anyone thinks I just wish my friends were more supportive "You alright man?" Dj taps my shoulder as I tie my shoes
"I just did the stupidest thing" I grab my helmet "What's up?"
"I asked Evers on a date"
"The gay kid?" He laughs "Why are you laughing?"
"Because you were going out with Giselle Amata last week and for some reason, you broke up with her and came out. People are talking dude so I hope you know what you're doing, Evers is not one of us do you really want to be associated with him?"
"I don't know maybe you're right."
"Of course I am! Now come on gay or not we have a game to win on Friday!" He runs out.
I didn't ask Evers out because I'm gay and he's the only other gay person I know, I actually like him I just can't seem to convince anyone of that.
After practice, I shower and get dressed to go to class. I said I wasn't going to let coming out bother me and I was doing a good job, but it's hard to ignore the whispering and the stares.
"Jonah"
"Yes" I mindlessly turn to the person calling my name to find Evers behind me "Can we talk? Like after school"
"Yeah"
"Cool" he turns to leave
"Hey look I'm sorry about-" I start before he walks away
But he waves me off "we'll talk after school" then walks away.
For the first time, I'm about to get rejected by someone I wouldn't even address last week.
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School ends and I drop all my books off at my locker, walking to Evers's locker I see him waiting there till I get to him. "Hey"
"Can we go for a drive?" He asks
"Sure" we walk out of the school to my car, unlocking it I open his door for him and shut it after he gets in, getting in on my side I pull out of the parking lot. He sits there quiet and I drive around, it feels so awkward I can't even look at him.
Finally stopping on a random street I say "I'm sorry I asked you out" I turn to him "You shouldn't have come out Jonah, you're not gay"
"You sound like my friends"
"Because they're right, are you bored? Is that why you're doing this?" "Bored? Because it's so hard to believe I'm gay right?"
"Yes! You hear how ridiculous it sounds too"
"Evers I'm gay all right! I'm not making it up, it's not hard to believe, and I'm not bored... You're not the only person who gets to be gay"
"Then prove it." "How?"
"Kiss me and mean it."
I pause staring at him then laugh "you're joking" but he doesn't laugh along "you're not joking?" "No, I'm not" I stop laughing
"Evers I've never kissed a guy before" yep I'm embarrassed "Then how do you know you're gay?"
Taking a deep breath I lean towards him slowly shutting my eyes, as soon as our lips touch I knew, not that I'm gay which I already know but that my feelings for Evers were real. "I stopped noticing Giselle and I noticed you a lot more" I say right after our lips touch. Picking up his hand Evers pulls my head in kissing me again, practically pulling each other off our seats our lips tighten around each other's and the feel of his lips sends this tension to the pit of my stomach.
"This is so weird" Evers says as soon as he pulls away
I chuckle not believing it "that was the realest thing I've felt in awhile!"
Turning to him excited I watch as he takes off his seatbelt then turns to me "this is a horrible idea, personally because this feels unnatural for me, but also because you never talk to me so how is it possible you're this into me?" I think and I come up completely blank "see you're just projecting and that's completely ok... you look so confused" he opens the car door to leave
"No wait! That's not fair Evers I'm allowed to be confused I've never done this before"
He shuts the door "heard it the millionth time you said it" sighing "I don't like you, Jonah"
"Then you wouldn't have kissed me back, or pulled me in for the second kiss" is it sad to say that I've never fought for something this hard before? Maybe he really doesn't like me and I'm just making myself look like an idiot. "Fine I won't force you to like me if you don't, but believe it or not, everything I said was completely true, I don't lie."
"I'm glad that you're being honest but this isn't what I want so... I'm sorry" he gets out of the car and I watch in the rearview mirror as he walks away then I pull off.
Going home I walk in the front door "Hey honey! Come in the kitchen I want to show you something!" My mom calls out and I drop my bag following her voice. Walking into the kitchen she sits at the table with a big inpatient grin on her face, the closer I got the more I noticed the flyers and pamphlets on the table in front of her
