Chapter 153
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"Hi" I slowly wake up to the feel of his fingers slowly running through my hair, half of my face buried in the pillow
"Good morning" he smiles as he continues to caress my hair "I missed you so I wanted you to wake up"
"You missed me while I was laying next to you?"
"Yes, now get up I'm gonna make some breakfast" he stands on the bed jumping off yelling "we're gonna have a great day!" I laugh watching as his naked butt disappear down the hall.
Getting up I walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth. Getting dressed and grabbing Ezra some clothes, I walk to the kitchen to him dancing to loud music chopping peppers "put some pants on!" I toss them at him.
Stopping what he's doing he picks the pants up and puts them on "today's gonna be a great day!" He says continuing to cook
Turning down the music "why do you keep saying that?" I sit across from him on the other side of the island in our kitchen
"I couldn't sleep last night so I stayed up making a list of things to do today" with his dirty hand he picks up a paper and hands it to me "I got us tickets to a lot of things and I found this really cool dude ranch so I called and got us a room tonight after our adventurous day!"
I read the sheet "the zoo"
"They got new pandas last week!" "The arc palace"
"Our favorite spot by the lake, I packed a picnic" he points and I follow his finger to the picnic basket across the room waiting.
I continue to read "Show dome"
"Alex was telling me about this play they're doing down there today and I got us tickets."
The more I read down the list the more stuff there was to do. I watch Ezra excited as he stirs the eggs, I know what's happening. "Honey I don't think we can do all of these, not in one day" I get off the stool and walk around to him "why don't we call and cancel these and just spend a day in together?"
"Nooooo no Miles come on! It took me all night to time this out and map today out! We're gonna have fun!" He begs and my heart yells yes!
But my mouth doesn't agree "If we stay in..." I slowly kiss his shoulder toward his back "we can do whatever we want..." I continue to trail
kisses on his back "don't you want this instead?"
"So much" he says as his back muscles tense up against my lips "but we can do that anytime! We won't have another day like the one I planned!" He drops everything and turns to me, he's not smiling anymore. Eyebrows arched and his hands are starting to shake "I want to
have this day!"
I run my hands from the top of his shoulders down to his elbows repeatedly, it calms him down "Ezra please just breathe and listen, come on" I breathe in and out with him "we can't afford to do all these things I'm sorry honey" I say in my calmest voice.
His eyes get angry "forget it" he shoves my arms off of him, grabbing the itinerary he rips it up and storms away to the bedroom slamming the door shut.
Picking up the pieces of paper I sit at the counter with some tape and start to tape it together.
Ezra is manic, I've been taking care of him since we were little. His parents moved to our town to have him because they're city people who wanted to raise him in the suburbs. They discovered that Ezra was sick when we were 4, he use to beat kids in our preschool up, but he was one of the smartest kids who everyone couldn't help but like. We thought Ezra was weird, but when he got diagnosed his parents packed everything while he was at school and never picked him up. He and I used to carpool together so my dad took him with us after school and after calling his parents hundreds of times, my parents had enough. They drove him over and saw the front door of Ezra's house left open, the house was completely empty. All I remember was the 4 of us walking through his empty house, Ezra was so confused by what he saw he started crying and ran away.
We never found him that night, but my parents reported it to the police and they found Ezra naked in the woods 3 days after he ran away.
He was thrown in foster care and since then everyone he's ever met has abandoned him, except for me.
Taping the list back together I stare at it one last time then walk to the bedroom. Walking in I find Ezra pacing back and forth rapidly hitting himself in the head "honey hey stop that!" I rush to him pulling his hand away "it's ok look at me" I calm him down
"No it's not! I never do anything right! You're mad at me aren't you?" He tries to pull his hand away to hit himself again
"No I'm not, look" I hand him the list "we can't do all of these things because we can't afford them, I'd love to do everything on this list with you"
"Really?" He's starting to calm down
"Yes I swear, but I tell you what let's sit and pick one thing out of the list we can do, and we'll call and cancel the rest together."
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After giving him his meds Ezra usually passes out for hours which is why he hates taking them, he says they make him feel numb but he has to take them because this would be worst if he didn't.
"How is he?" I walk into my older sister Julia's house. Julia's married with a son, and her house is like my little getaway after dealing with one of Ezra's outbursts.
"Fine or at least better now. He didn't sleep all night and when I woke up this morning he was already up, he made this itinerary for today, and Julia I kid you not when I say he had like 30 things to do on that list" I drop myself on one of the chair around the kitchen table as she walks around cooking
"Things like what?"
