Chapter 174
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I walk up to his door nervously 'Emerson you go home right now this is INSANE!' Ignoring my right mind I knock on the door. "Hi" I smile when he answers
"Hi" he smiles back "Come in" he pulls me in. Shutting the door his lips already make contact with mine as his hands rush to my bulge
"How was your day?" I ask as he is kissing me and I try to make conversation "It was fine" he laughs, we trail from his door to his wall
'Keep making conversation Em' "so what did you do today?" he sticks his hand in my pants and I kind of flinch
"Emerson are we going to fuck or not?" he pulls away asking
"Yeah of course" I smile disappointed, we go to his room and we have sex. Beck and I met two months ago on Grindr, I was just looking for a one night thing but I saw him and I was hooked. He's good looking, smart, gives the greatest head, and the feel of his hair against my palms is heavenly. Having casual sex with Beck is fun, we'd meet up at random places during our breaks at work and have sex, but one big problem I fell for Beck. I didn't just fall for him I face planted for him.
"you're happier than usual" my roommate Steve says as we're cooking in the kitchen I smile at him "it's this guy I've been seeing"
"He your boyfriend?"
"No not at all, I met him on Grindr and we just hook up"
"Didn't think people you just hook up with can make you smile like that"
"They can't but Beck can. I like him a lot Steve and every time I try to get to know him he just kisses me"
"Leave it to the gay guy in the house to try and get in a relationship with a guy he met on Grindr"
Steve's straight by the way
"Shut up" I continue cooking but keep talking "but do you think I should do it? Do you think I should tell him how I feel"
"Honestly I don't know dude. What do guys like to hear from other guys?" "You suck as a friend" I roll my eyes
"What do you want from me?" he laughs "most I know about gay dudes are that they like butts and
anything pinot related"
"Did you just refer to a penis as pinot?" I turn to him with an eyebrow raised
"What? I've heard you and your gay friends called it that before, I thought it was normal" I laugh hysterically "stay you Steve."
Few days after Steve and I's conversation I was sitting at home doing nothing when Beck texts me 'busy?' if I say no I'll regret it, if I say yes
I'll probably not have the guts to tell him how I feel and then I'll regret it so I reply 'nope' then he says 'k I'm coming over.' Shit! I jump out of bed 'THIS IS BAD! THIS IS REALLY BAD EMERSON' I run around cleaning things up, Steve and I are pigs. twenty minutes later my door
bell goes off and I buzz him in. I open the door "hey you" I smile "hey" he flashes a smile and pushes me in with a kiss.
He kisses my lips with his cloud like lips "hey Beck I need to talk to you" I manage to spit out with his tongue in my mouth "What?" he mumbles and his tongue exits my mouth.
His lips felt so good "umm..." they cause me to forget all the words I prepare to say to him "I can tell you later." I rip his clothes off and let him have his way with me.
That same night we lay in my bed as he falls asleep, I gather the courage and whisper "Beck?" he doesn't reply "Beck are you up?" I whisper some more
"Hmmm?" he replies with his eyes closed as he lays on my arm "I need to tell you something"
"What?" he mumbles
Taking a deep breath "I really like what we're doing here and you're a great guy and I swear I was hoping this didn't happen but I really like you Beck. And I don't just like you because we've been having sex I genuinely like it more when you're around" I spit out not looking at him avoiding his reaction.
After processing what I just said he sits up "I should go" getting up he grabs his underwear and pants from the floor
"What? Wait! no!" I get up trying to take his pants away from him as he puts them on "I'm sorry I don't know why I said that." I panic
"No Emerson you said it and you meant it" he puts on his shirt and shoes, without making any eye contact with me Beck rushes out and slams the door as I follow in disbelief. 'GOOD FUCKING JOB EMERSON WARNER YA DONE FUCKED!'
"What happened?" Steve exits from his room after hearing the door slam
"I told him how I felt and he totally rejected it" I walk back to my room "fuck my life." I shut my door and climb into bed trying to think of all the things I did wrong.
The next few days past and I hear nothing from Beck, I know he's active on Grindr because I see his profile but he's just been ignoring me.
"Em you alright?" my coworker Courtney asks me as I stare blankly into space thinking instead of working
