Chapter 188
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"This is my fault!?" why am I shocked, of course, he'd never take the blame "That's not what I'm saying"
"What are you saying?" I finally turn to look at him "because I'm confused, we use to talk all day long. I'd sneak out of class to meet you in the bathroom, those secret dates, my virginity. They meant nothing to you?" I get a little riled up and people look over at us
"You know that's not true"
"No what I know is you played and used me then forgot about me as if it didn't matter, as if I didn't matter" I stop and sigh calming myself down "just leave Teddy"
"This is a public park" fuck him
"Fine. I'll leave" I get up walking towards my sisters "Rena! Tina! let's go" I call out for them "What but we just got here!" they whine
"Come on mom said dinner's ready" I lie. Turning around I glance at him still sitting on the bench watching me as I leave.
We get home and they run inside ignoring me, they're mad and I don't blame them I ruined their fun. "You're back early"
"Teddy was at the park and I couldn't handle it" I walk into the kitchen "Teddy?" she gives a questionable look
"Teddy's the guy I had sex with ma" "Oh. Why was he there?"
"To try and make it my fault that he's been ignoring me" I sit on one of the stool behind the counter to face her as she continues to cook
"the one time I actually let a guy in and this happens"
"You know how to pick'em" my mom jokes. She went back to her dinner and I went up to my room. My phone dings as I am about to sit on my bed. Of course, it's Teddy, I reluctantly open the message 'I'm sorry' it reads. He's not sorry, people Like Teddy are never sorry
'I'm sorry too' sorry I ever wasted my time
'Don't do this Adam'
'You've apologized and so have I just move on'
'I can't :(' he sends a frowny face as if I'm supposed to feel bad. 'Please meet me somewhere I have to talk to you' I can say no, I'm strong, Teddy's hold over me is practically gone... right?
'Hell would freeze over before that happens'
'Please Adam I need to see you' when he used to say that it would make me feel so good but now I know all it's gonna do if hurt me if I see him
I need to stop this 'stop texting me, Teddy' 'I will if you say you'll meet me'
'NO!'
'Fine then you give me no choice' what the heck does that mean? Before I could text back to find out he starts spamming my phone with messages. I can ignore it, he's not going to break me. And he wasn't, but after a while, I couldn't do it anymore I know he won't stop
'FINE! STOP! I'LL MEET YOU!' I reply regretting it right after
'Meet me at our spot' our spot is this secluded gazebo in the middle of a park. We use to go there and make out at night because no one could see us. Without replying I grab my keys and run downstairs. "I'll be right back mom" I rush to the front door before she could reply, she doesn't need to know what I'm doing.
As I drive to the park so many things run through my mind, for example, WHY WOULD I DO THIS?! I'm so stupid. I get to the park and head towards the gazebo. It's almost dark out, I see him sitting in the gazebo with a sorry look on his face. I walk in "hey" he greets me smiling. I don't reply I just stand there, I'm trying to hold my ground "please sit" he gestures me to sit next to him
"I'm fine standing"
"Okay." He gets up and stands in front of me "Adam I'm sorry" "You're not"
"I am I swear" he moves closer and I back up "I can fix this" "There's nothing to fix Teddy the damage is already done"
"Please give me another chance" he frowns and I can feel it, I can feel myself starting to break down
"W-why should I?" my voice cracks as tears form in my eyes "you've already hurt me once why do you need to again?"
"I won't hurt you" the tears fall from my eyes to my cheeks and he reaches out to wipe them causing me to flinch but I let him do it anyway "I was a jerk for ignoring you Adam I don't know why I did it, maybe I was scared and I panicked but I like you so much and I can't stop thinking about you" he moves closer resting his head in my neck "I'm sorry" he whispers "you're all I want Adam I mean it" his whispers against my neck feels so good they make me numb
I open my mouth to speak but I don't know how to form the words, so we just stand there with his head buried in my neck and me not knowing what to do. "Promise me" I finally let out
"Anything"
"Promise me this will never happen again"
he pulls away from my neck staring into my eyes "I swear Adam Davis I will never hurt you again" he smiles and I give in and kiss him.
